January 20, 2012
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gettinghealthySo I haven't been doing what I planned to do with SimCity, but there is a reason. When I twisted/hurt my ankle a couple weeks ago I landed pretty hard and on a hard surface. I thought that the only thing injured was my ankle/foot, but once the pain from that started to go down I realized that my whole right arm, all the way up to my neck, was in pain, and it got intense enough that I lost of few days worth of memories. Kevin is now completely convinced that my memory loss is a defense mechanism that my body is using to keep me sane because the greater the pain, the more significant the memory loss.
At first I thought the pain in my arm was from playing and holding my arm at a strange angle, but even after two or three days of no playing, it still hurt a lot, in fact, I think it was getting worse with less movement. I wasn't able to sleep very well because of the pain so for the last two weeks I've basically done nothing but try to read my favorite manga series, Fruits Basket (which if you ever have a chance, I would highly recommend. If you don't want to read it, FUNimation has the first 7 or 8 books for free as an anime series, I have included a link to their site in this sentence. It is to their shows page, but you can find Fruits Basket pretty easily from there. Tohru Honda is the kind of person I want to be like.) and seeing what all I can do with my left arm. I have learned that while I am rather uncoordinated with my right arm, I am a disaster waiting to happen with my left arm; clicking anything with a mouse or touch pad with my left hand was an exercise in futility because it just never worked the way I wanted it to and I risked injury to myself when trying to eat with a fork or use a knife with my left hand.
Fortunately the pain in my right arm is less, it isn't gone, but it is low enough now I will try playing again, although it has been long enough I need to re-read my notes on what it was I planned to do.
I'm also trying to re-read Harry Potter now. I started a couple of days ago and so far I have only made it through five pages, and even that wasn't read all at once. I basically read a paragraph or two and then have to take a break. I have to use the bookmark to cover the text below the text I am reading or I read down the page in diagonal sort of manner which makes something that is difficult to do that much harder. I'm trying to not let it get me down, but it has been a big reminder of the limitation I am currently under. When I first read the series, all but the first book were read in one sitting on the day/nigh of release, and I have never been a quick reader, but my ability to focus as always made up for that; the first book I read a chapter at a time for the first week until I got into it and then read the rest of it straight through. At the rate I am currently going, it could take me years to finish this, but that is okay, because I am doing it and it is something I have wanted to do for a while.
I'm also doing the makeup more. I posted a while ago about the fact that I sometimes put on makeup to help make myself feel better about myself, especially with the lack of hair to use to make myself feel better about myself. I have been thinking maybe I should do a photo series of the makeup I have been doing, not to post for everyone, but more for myself, because it might help me to remember. I was wearing makeup sometimes last year, but I mostly forgot that I even had the makeup. It was helped some by nail polish, which I mainly wear on my toe nails because I can see those since I only wear sandals and it doesn't chip as fast as on my fingernails. I am trying to make sure that this year I am more consistent with it, because it really does contribute to my better moods. Sometimes I do the makeup kind of silly, basically anything that looks really done up I consider silly for me, because I have always felt the best makeup was the kind that looked more natural. Sometimes I go really light with the makeup and it is something I wouldn't mind actually wearing in public. Both types of makeup have their purpose and I use them at different times for different reasons.
I'm not sure how to end this post so, this is the end of the post.
At first I thought the pain in my arm was from playing and holding my arm at a strange angle, but even after two or three days of no playing, it still hurt a lot, in fact, I think it was getting worse with less movement. I wasn't able to sleep very well because of the pain so for the last two weeks I've basically done nothing but try to read my favorite manga series, Fruits Basket (which if you ever have a chance, I would highly recommend. If you don't want to read it, FUNimation has the first 7 or 8 books for free as an anime series, I have included a link to their site in this sentence. It is to their shows page, but you can find Fruits Basket pretty easily from there. Tohru Honda is the kind of person I want to be like.) and seeing what all I can do with my left arm. I have learned that while I am rather uncoordinated with my right arm, I am a disaster waiting to happen with my left arm; clicking anything with a mouse or touch pad with my left hand was an exercise in futility because it just never worked the way I wanted it to and I risked injury to myself when trying to eat with a fork or use a knife with my left hand.
Fortunately the pain in my right arm is less, it isn't gone, but it is low enough now I will try playing again, although it has been long enough I need to re-read my notes on what it was I planned to do.
I'm also trying to re-read Harry Potter now. I started a couple of days ago and so far I have only made it through five pages, and even that wasn't read all at once. I basically read a paragraph or two and then have to take a break. I have to use the bookmark to cover the text below the text I am reading or I read down the page in diagonal sort of manner which makes something that is difficult to do that much harder. I'm trying to not let it get me down, but it has been a big reminder of the limitation I am currently under. When I first read the series, all but the first book were read in one sitting on the day/nigh of release, and I have never been a quick reader, but my ability to focus as always made up for that; the first book I read a chapter at a time for the first week until I got into it and then read the rest of it straight through. At the rate I am currently going, it could take me years to finish this, but that is okay, because I am doing it and it is something I have wanted to do for a while.
I'm also doing the makeup more. I posted a while ago about the fact that I sometimes put on makeup to help make myself feel better about myself, especially with the lack of hair to use to make myself feel better about myself. I have been thinking maybe I should do a photo series of the makeup I have been doing, not to post for everyone, but more for myself, because it might help me to remember. I was wearing makeup sometimes last year, but I mostly forgot that I even had the makeup. It was helped some by nail polish, which I mainly wear on my toe nails because I can see those since I only wear sandals and it doesn't chip as fast as on my fingernails. I am trying to make sure that this year I am more consistent with it, because it really does contribute to my better moods. Sometimes I do the makeup kind of silly, basically anything that looks really done up I consider silly for me, because I have always felt the best makeup was the kind that looked more natural. Sometimes I go really light with the makeup and it is something I wouldn't mind actually wearing in public. Both types of makeup have their purpose and I use them at different times for different reasons.
I'm not sure how to end this post so, this is the end of the post.
